one last dream

2007-04-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

Just for your info:
After the camp tomorrow, i will be using this brand new URL! HOOTS!

Click the banner to go my new blog. x))

2007-04-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

I AM GOING TO BUY ARENA 37 DEGREES SPECIAL FOR SURE!
Tell me that they are freaking gorgeous and charming. GOD!

I am mentally readied for the TP camp tomorrow! HOOTS! I cant wait! x))

I was late for an hour for work this afternoon as i thought i was actually working 6-10!
Met Shyan and Ali for lunch/dinner at Ramen-ten and we swore that we wont go back there again. LOL. Saw Howen and gang, hoots! His hair is curly? LOL! Anyway, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HOWEN! I've forgotten to wish him and opps. Yups. hahas.

I have forgotten to mention, i have actually posted 2 fanmails with both japanese and english language to Shou yesterday! My god, i think i am crazy because both contents are actually around the same! (laugh) And He is totally gorgeous, BOY!
-jesse. You cant say that i am crazy now since after what you have told me yesterday!! HOHOS!

2007-04-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

This is what i've cooked for my dinner today. It was pretty yummy, i am pretty a bit proud of it. LOL. It is porridge anyway with some cheesy fishcake and hotdogs. HOOTS!

im a fake.

The thought i used to have keeps haunting me nowadays again.

2007-04-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

what for give a damn about everything?

Dont freaking sound like you know me well but actually in the fact that you fcuking dont understand me even a pinch.
Im not a good girl neither i want to be a good person.
Abandon me, i give up.

Buy me with cash and credits, a body without a soul.
And yes, every shit i just dont give a damn.

Went out with jesse, ali and aud to bugis today! Everybody did get something back home and i am going back to there for sure since the lovely shop does not open today. x)) And it's nice for us to get back and finally meet up again. Hoots!

Saw my lovely pool partner today. =DD

2007-04-09T01:31:00.000+08:00

ureshi desu.

Went out with Drey after work today for some shopping at singapore expo.
We did buy quite a no. on clothings and have a great day today!
Mah, tomorrow more shopping! YAY! More girlfriends get back together! YAY! Mah, Huat and Vonne cant join us. =(( Boo boo.

Describe it as charming and gorgeous. Too bad. =(

I've forgotten to mention about the day before yesterday, there were these two japanese cuties came to Tonkichi and eat. HOOTS! CUTE~!! So im here to say Thank You to Jing and Maureen for giving me plenty of chances to serve them. Heh hehs.. But for today, i was so reluctant! The guys at Table 20 were not cuties nor hotties. =X Boy, i sound so desperate. (laugh)

Make it a deal, i shall not be choosy in the future. (laugh)

2007-04-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

food is all what i need. (laugh)

After the morning session of rebonding, i went home to take a rather long nap.
Meet up my dad and his girlfriend for some Sakae Sushi as dinner. I was rather surprised that i have eaten almost 10 plates of sushi or rather more, and before that, i have eaten a cup noodle. GOSH, i do eat alot nowadays, without calculating the days i have continuously eaten Big Pack of chips every night as supper. Think i have really grown fatter by each day now, someone stop me please!

My brother says i have a double chin. O great, this is so not good.

Jesse is totally crazy over Yamapi now and yes, CRAZY!!
So now, others cant say im the only one who are crazy over idols, jesse too! HOOTS! =x
But Shou is da best! (laugh)

2007-04-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

reunion

Went out with my primary school mates and i was so late. (laugh)
We have ur lunch cum dinner at Pasta Cafe and we talked about those things which happened years ago. Great laughter was created. =)) We took some neoprints as memories then off we went separate ways.

TC, WATCH OUT!
All because of him, my duty is to sweep for the rest of my working days at Tonkichi. Great, i dislike sweeping. DAVID is another bastard one, GRR! x((

Mah, i have been indulging myself with food and snacks lately as supper! My god, not only i eat a lot for my usual 3 meals, i do for my supper too. This is horrible, I just cant stop eating!! That's how my weight grows everyday, my god.

"Akira" shocked. No comments.

i like the conversation. =))

2007-04-03T00:11:00.000+08:00

set it dumb

today went out with jesse and ali. Yups, they are OT3 while we are WT3 which stands for working trios3. Okay, this is lame. Anyway, saw this "school" shoes which i was planning to buy for my poly days, should i or should i not. The pair costs 33 bucks, so yups. Hmm, thinking hard.

Jandy our manager decides to put my name tag as Neeko or Niiko, which meant Black Cat but through the net searching, Black Cat actually calls Kuroneko. So while, maybe i should call myself Neko instead which meant Cat. LOL. Lame, o well. Boy, hahas. Im mad.

Shou is totally GORGEOUS!
Look at this. Their new album "White Prayer" which will be released in 6th of June. My God. I totally cant wait. They are freaking charming. segei! This is so attractive that i cant stop looking at Shou and esp Shou. (whoowha)

credits: kurumii and pscompany

Off to watch Kurosagi. =)

Ciaos,
Seishun Amigos. Hoots!

2007-04-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

Kitty GYM. Yamapi with two thailand pop singer Golf & Mike form a group call Kitty Gym. Aint they cute? LOL! Gp;f and Mike songs are not bad so im thinking of putting their song in my blog. Its pretty nice besides i duno what the lyrics mean anyway. LOL.

2007-04-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

i need a long break.

I have been so tired lately, trying to sleep early and getting up late but somehow it does not work well. Even if i have sufficient amount of sleep but i simply feel so weary almost everyday. O boy. I want to really stay at home and have a long break lying on the bed or do my own stuffs. But o well, work and going out stuffs. (laugh)

2007-03-31T22:39:00.000+08:00

it is just a joke but meant for him. =)

Went out with cf today, practically eating.
Then, jesse met us for some after lunch tea. It seems like i have not been updated from her since some weeks ago? Or maybe im just exaggerating but basically everyone is busy because of work and stuff. so yups, i need some clothes for poly! Hoots! Need to do some shopping!! x))
And i need some updates from my colleagues too since they are having tea now. O well~ (laugh)

I think i am anti-social. Somehow i've changed.

credits: alice9_diaries

This is taken from Shou from Black Jewel & White Rose tour. The banner is rather cool aites and the name stuff too. Hoots! This is the night for today as the moon is actually glowing high up on the sky. Gorgeous night.

Tomorrow working 12-4 and im off for some Kurosagi!

Ciaos,
Sei shun amigos. x)

2007-03-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

happy ending

I pretty like the ending of hana yori dago season2!
Imagine you are being proposed in front of thousands of people in a concert hall. Hoots! This is crazy!! Only the mighty o-re-sama can do it! Geez. x))
Tomorrow im so wanted to get the magazine!! Alice Nine looks so Hot inside!!

*grrr, my eye is so itchy! x(
o well, tomorrow working split! BOOZ! I think some early sleep. =(

I think this picture is super cute. *points out to Hanazawa Rui

credits: chochajin

2007-03-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

our thinking are just the same.

This is Col.
Ureshi, i dreamt of Shou today. =)

Everyone is just a human being afterall, everyone has his/her own flaws.
Problems, i have mine too.
Suffocating.

Anyway, during this tour, please welcome the three new songs we'll be bothering you with (laugh) There'll be:

"WHITE PRAYER"
"STRAY CAT"
"THE LAST EMPIRE"

THE LAST EMPIRE is the Saitama one (laugh)
For now, "STRAY CAT" is the song that'll put a smile on everyone's face, the song of an old cat who hasn't died yet. With such feeling of wanting to laugh and be in high spirits with everyone, "THE LAST EMPIRE" has a "Mosh pit! Raise your fists! Let's stop the world!" sort of feeling. (like such) "
credits: alice9_diaries.

I just want to be a stray cat with freedom and without problems.

Yapali, both Shou and me has the same thinking. I wonder we have similar character, finally someone has the same thinking as me i guess.

Far away.

Shiawase? Chi gao
Ureshi? Chi gao
Sabishii? .. Mah
Doshite? Waka lanai.
Hotonii? .. Mah

2007-03-28T01:41:00.000+08:00

Defective Tragedy

sometimes, i just dont feel like maintaining it at all.
sometimes, i just dont feel like trying harder anymore.
Its not like i have not tried at all.

Tomorrow is my off day! So im planning to sleep and sleep and sleep.
Ah~ Im watching Engine too. Marvelous! Its great to be left alone at home finally!! xDD

Everybody has an angel and devil within them.
Sometimes i am just in doubt with myself, i just dont make a good friend after all.
Seeing whatever is just an outershell, inside just reject anyone else.

Whoo~ the dorama "Angels with Broken Wings" speaks about real life when every woman falls hard on the ground and how they stand up again. NICE!! x))
I guess i have been fantasizing over young boys lately too much. x( LOL
This is so wrong. STOP ME! LOL

2007-03-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

sing it alive
"13"

I GET IT! Preferably everyone are changing blog url, and dear pyy has finally used her livejournal. So i shall tag her, if not, it will be rather lonely for her not knowing what people thinks about her post. xP

"Teenage Ninja Turtles" is a pretty nice movie since i get treated! OPPS, sorry shyan! hahas. Perhaps one day i shall really give him a treat since he helped me alot and has treated me alot, or else people will say i took advantages on him. hahas. That's not the way man. O well~

And o great, i lost all of my precious graduation night photos. Im totally pissed about it. Darn.

After work today, David did bang Ali with alot of reality facts and he did not let me off too. Perhaps he may be right about my stuffs, and yes i agree but its hard for me to open up now. hahas. lol.

Ciaos,
Seishun Amigos. x)

2007-03-26T02:45:00.000+08:00

i cried horribly after watching two episodes of some drama.
Somehow i can feel the pain from the situation, an heartache of every scenes created.
Leaving someone belovered is unbearable, but somehow we have to move on.
Even if dreams are just too far to be true, it is not useless to have worked hard on it.

2007-03-24T16:21:00.000+08:00

just want to stay in my dream forever.

Any yes, i have forgotten to blog about my dream.
I feel so much love although everything is not true. It is rather ridiculous and yes, i was actually with a young boy in the dream. Scenes of zoo, my block below and *cant remember that clearly. But *he kept holding my hand in the dream, even if times we had to let go our hands, he never fails to grab my hand back again. That's the best part i can remember very clearly. He maybe young, but his thoughts are matured enough for you to feel so much love inside. It is totally a dream that i dont want to wake up seriously. Some parts are meant not to be said, embarrassed. But yups, not like what ali has said, it is NOT a wet dream. Just some sweet dream. x))

The very young boy resembles Hongo Kanata. O well, i dont mind if it is actually a reality! xD

but he is actually the same age as me. xP

2007-03-24T13:44:00.000+08:00

pictures are taken,
so that you will not be forgotten. =))

Lately, i have been hanging out with my colleagues. We did kayak and have our dinner at Seoul's during last thursday. It was a meaningful trip as kayaking was a sport that we hardly get the chance to do mostly. That day, we did a lot of camwhores as i looked good in mostly every picture!! Wahahas. xDD

Yesterday, Jesse, ali and i went to have our medical checkup and the queue was extremely long as we waited from around 9.45 to 4 in order to reach our turn. A coincidence thing happened and it was so hilarious! O well~ At night after work, my colleagues and i went for a movie at vivo city since i had not gone there before. We watched Mr Bean on a Holiday and i rated it as average. Mr Bean reminds me of Mr Lim as we missed him so much. Those days in school and outside school. O well~ Anyway, we had our supper after that and we went home pretty late. *tired.

I have to get my enrollment stuffs done quickly!! My god, i have not done my online register and photo taking yet! *boosh.

And i cant wait to meet my girlfriends next time! I miss them badly. x((
Ciaos,
Sei shun amigos. x)

2007-03-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

just a look back

Thanks Jing for the drink!
We went for our usual after work tea and we talked a lot of such and such problems. (although most of the time i sat there listening) We came across this topic and to my opinion, I am alright to have a boyfriend who have a very close girl friend. It is just that, it will be alright if i was not kept in the dark and not to be left aside although there's a close friend talk to be taken place in front of me! Afterall, a girlfriend is a girlfriend, there's always a need for trust and respect to take place. =))
Another topic that we came across, Shyan asked, "What do you think about a girl chase after a guy?" To me, it is alright for the girl to drop by hints and confess. But it will not be the extend to ask for the guy to go for steady or wad. Like what Jing said, the guy has to do the final initiative in order to begin the following step. And i totally agree to that, no matter what girls like to be cherished by their loved ones. If it is the girl who take the initiative, it seems like guys have to be cherished more. This is a subjective topic. Although now is the 21st century whereby girls get more open minded than the guys do, my mind will stick to the rather old way. O well~

My package has arrived! HUURA! x)) It is time to fill in the formsssss now.
ciaos! seishun amigos!

2007-03-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

He is totally my type of guy. x))
The hairstyle and the character, whoo hoo~ Too bad, he is just another singer in Korea. =((
I still like him best in DBSK (rising sun). O well~

I have not recieved my package yet! My god, i am going to panic soon. x((

2007-03-19T02:54:00.000+08:00

CHAD, YOU ROCK(S)!

finally i found someone who listen to Alice Nine songs without me recommending!!
whoo hoo! (laugh)

2007-03-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

because i feel so..

Today, I was totally so pissed. Maybe partly is because of getting wet but mostly is actually about getting irritated by someone. O well. Shall skip this.
Later in the evening, i was pretty satisfied with myself after receiving compliments from fussy customers who sat at Table 4 today. It motivated me to do better in the service line and honestly, i was so proud of myself. Maybe it was normal, but i just cant help grinning to myself because of the compliments. This is the best thing of the day. =)) I was even been complimented in front of my supervisor and manager. x)) My god, i love compliments. xDD
So i shall make sure i'll do better next time, i really like being in the service line not because of that, but of the smiles on the customers' face. =))

Repeating and decreasing. Maybe it is just been there all the while. O well~ (laugh)

I officially need to go on a diet!! Im over fifty now, and yes! FAT! But i cant refrain myself from eating!! I have take this as an habit as my mouth goes itchy everyday!! My god. So any one morning swimming or doing some sports? ( no jogging please, i dont like jogging. x(( )

2007-03-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

*snapped

Went to cousin's bbq today. The transportation time was like hours! Anyway, i did alot of camwhores while my brother was the photographer for today! Muahahas. O well, i shall go sleep already. Tomorrow, i am working split which started on 11 so yups, sleep early peeps!
Im pretty satisfied with the photoshopped pictures although i can only use the program for 30 days trial only. so loads of pictures will be uploaded today. x))

some candid pictures of mine. *photoshopped.

when days are spent alone, girlfriends will be right there for you rights?

2007-03-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

happy funny day!

hey guys,
click to get the photos which are taken from my phone.
Since im too lazy to upload them up in photobucket.
(SWIM)
Went for a swim with my fellow girlfriends.
Stupidites and laughter were created. x)) Great day!

Anyway, i have a new blog. It will be officially used when i start school around next month? You all can go and take a look. Everything is done. x))
(NUMBER THIRTHIETH)

Seishun amigos! ciaos!

2007-03-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

i am thinking of going O school to take up Hip Hop lessons.
Every tues 8pm and it takes only 1 hour. No one acc me and this is what it stops me.
Boy, i have to make my decision quick. The opening session starts on the coming tuesday!! x(

2007-03-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

O well, after reading my pri friend previous post, i have realised she had celebrated her birthday thrice! My god, im so envious. But o well, if my birthday could be like that and that will be great. heh hehs. Maybe im asking too much, but as long as my friends were all there, it will be the best! x)) Maybe i should repeat myself in a few more months time, in order to remind my poly friends and sec friends. HOHOS!

My cousins are getting married because both of their partners are actually expecting. My god, she is like 23 and she had told us she still want to play more at her age. My god, "Akira" shocked. I have realised that nowadays teenager usually have their first sexual intercourse before getting married. People are getting more and more open up. Or is it the fact that my mind is so narrow? LOL. But you will never know what things will happen in the future. As you grow up, the mindset you are thinking will be different. So yups, my brother is not a virgin anymore so lalalas, i dont know alr. LOL. =x O well, i want a boyfriend. =.= Maybe im getting too desperate, maybe i should not be anymore. *Sighs.

2007-03-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

credits: ongakusenkasha

This is the magazine that i have desperately bought today. It costs me 23 bucks and i had bought posters which cost 13 bucks online too. My god, i have intensively spend my money on alice nine and now, i have to work more to cover up the costs. x)) O well, im so excited about buying the magazines, they are TOO HOT! MY GOD. xD The magazine comprises a few pages of Alice Nine but there is an Alice Nine poster, so maybe it is not a waste of money? LOL. xD
So im wondering when i should meet up the person to get Alice Nine's posters from her. *doki doki. xD

Okay, im going to start saving money now to buy the Arena Special which comprises around 40 pages of Alice Nine inside! x)) So i think i bought the wrong magazine but o well, at least i have a poster. =DD

2007-03-14T02:39:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, help me choose a blogspot name as im going to change to a brand new one as there's a new beginning in poly life. xD Currently this blogname is rather childish (*er herm) so help me choose one yea?

- number13.blogspot.com
-happydays.blogspot.com
-betterdays.blogspot.com
-blackcat.blogspot.com (weird -.-")
-blackjewel.blogspot.com (idea of alice nine lol)

should be that's all for now. lol.

2007-03-13T20:15:00.001+08:00

Only Human

Index

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness
What awaits us when we arrive there?

When I started on this journey on that far away summer day
It was supposed to be to chase my dreams, not to run away

If I could only see tomorrow, there'd be no more sighs
Like a boat struggling against the flow
Right now I've got to keep going

They say happiness awaits at the end of pain
I'm still searching for an out-of-season sunflower

With my hands balled into fists, I wait for the dawn
With red fingernail marks and shining tears falling

If I've become used to the loneliness, I'll use the moonlight
And fly with featherless wings
I've got to keep going further

If the rain clouds have parted, the wet road will be shining
Only the darkness can teach us
About the strong, strong light
I've got to keep going stronger

2007-03-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

A new hot drama " Ichi Rittoru no Namida ", " 1 Litre Of Tears". It is a very touching story till you will non-stop crying. I like~.
The summary: 15-year-old Ikeuchi Aya was an ordinary girl, the daughter of a family who works at a tofu shop, and a soon-to-be high schooler. However, odd things have been happening to Aya lately. She has been falling down often and walks strange. Her mother, Shioka, takes Aya to see the doctor, and he informs Shioka that Aya has spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. How will Aya react when told about her disease? And how will Aya live from now on?

HOOTS! Tomorrow finally is an off day! So perhaps im meetin drey for a swim tomorrow. ciaos! Off to watch the dorama! xD

2007-03-12T01:04:00.000+08:00

I give this a try since my girlfriends have done it alr.

My Personality


Neuroticism	21
Extraversion	63
Openness To Experience	64
Agreeableness	57
Conscientiousness	41

You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. You are generally calm and composed, reacting moderately well to situations that most people would describe as stressful. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

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So it is just half true to me, o well.
Mah, i am not sure whether it is true for me or not. Opinions please? (laugh)

2007-03-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

Mah, this is Col.

"Mah, with that said, everyone, let's make this tour even hotter than the previous one,
with our fists! With an emo feeling" -extracted from Shou's blog.
And did i read wrongly? An emo feeling? o yes!! This will be so great and exotic for Shou to write a more emo song. x)) i love it!

Yesterday, we went for supper after their work at tonkichi. And yes, after that we went to play pool. Great, i found a lovely lounge at Cuppage which is called " Miyabi ". And this made me so excited over the name because of the jrock singer, Miyavi which is so hot cool. x))
Nevertheless, we had our supper after work today too. Gees. I need to get my arse up to fire up my engine. HOO!! *Jing should know what i mean. hehes. But i have to find the one right. x))
make it a deal, Shou should be the one. x))

When no one is there to help you, it is time for you to stand up on your own and get things to work out in your own way. No one can be there for you forever and that's what i've learnt.

2007-03-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

get together again x))

Meet up with my pri school friends in the noon today. Their appearance has changed but i think their character does not change. O well, everyone has changed except for Audrey. She is still as kiddy as last time and worst, we looked like we are taking a little sister out for a shop. We met up for lunch and played pool at amk. Then, Audrey the busy girl came and we went to town to take some neoprints. I have work at 6 so i left early and that's all for now. Gees.

Overall, Col enjoy her day today but she is half floating during work. lol.

some stupidity in the toilet.

we are back together. =DD

This is my schedule for next week, i doubt we can carry out our original plans.. =((
MON: 6-10
TUES: OFF
WED: 6-10
THURS: 12-4
FRI: 12-4
SAT: OFF (night got bbq)
SUN: SPLIT.

And those days im off, the other ppl either got work or cant go out. yups. I try to swap if i can. =(

2007-03-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

we shall do this together xDD

Today, both drey and me went to Singapore Art Museum and Mint Toy museum at city hall there. We went to look at the beautiful calligraphies and paintings at SAM. The paintings are lovely and we were like " whoa.. so nice. whoa.." hahas. This is what we call art. x)) Then, we got our hands on to do some colourings as our masterwork to show it in SAM.
The Toy museum is marvelous as it is just officially opened at March this year, we are so lucky. There are toys that we did not see before and toys that give us memories back during our good old days. x)) I love the Toy museum. xD

Museums dont allow pictures to be taken so yups. Too bad. So there are some Snap Shots we secretly took at the Toy Museum. xP Overall, today is a meaningful trip and i get my tooth plucked in the night. xDD

Hot chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream we shared. x)

i know my face look weird in the 2nd pic. -.-

only one outcast. LOL

2007-03-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

o yes we are. x))

The conversation between me and jesse. So girlfriends, look out!

threads of rainbow . says:
yea yea, we'll find two days in march holis. one go explore chinatown and lil india. one go sentosa. 3days let them go remedial, and twoday for us all to rest at home. yay !!
haaa. march holi is plan !!
JEWELS; Let us sing with all our pride. - " SHOU says: YEA!!! HO HO HOS!

So the march holiday time is well planned and girls, remember to notice us when you all are having ur breaks as soon as possible so that i can take my OFFS!!! HOOTS! This is great, so we shall look forward to next week and smile towards it. xD

2007-03-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

Went Sentosa with colleagues today. It was superb fun. Though there are some uneven tans but we did enjoy ourselves i believed besides some yuan qi or smth. Hahas. Although Thong was there, he did entertain us or we entertain him? HM..O well, dont think about it. After beaching, everyone has become either red or black. Okay, maybe i am the one who is black. LOL! We had dinner at some chinese restaurant at Thomsan opp Pyy's old house. The 11 dishes were supreme and everyone were so full. It was Isetan D&D so o well, it was free. x)) Marvin looks like some brother of mine so i seem to have managed to pester him to give me a ride on his bike next time since i have yet ride on a bike before. x)) Great. After dinner, we went to Prata's house for some bonding chatting and it was merely crazy.

Overall, the day was well spent from day to night. =))

the lovely strawberries delight both me and Jing ordered at TCC some days ago.
Sweet~!

She is our new manager. Aint she look hot and sexy?
she seems like a big sister to me. x))

Other photos are meant to keep it to myself. Gees. xD
I cant wait for tomorrow and friday. xDD

Ja mata neh. =))

2007-03-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

ROARRRS!
credits: Hiroto's blog x)

I am ready to spend over 50 bucks on Jrock magazines because i have found out Alice Nine are totally irresistible now. My GOD! They are freaking gorgeous! xDD

2007-03-05T18:59:00.000+08:00

*prince charming.
*doki doki desu.

Gonbanwa. This is Col. Lately i was trying to learn Japanese language so that i can communicate with those Japanese outside next time. Heh hehs. Today, i saw this pretty cute Japo in Shaw House. My god. I was totally excited over him but o well, no fate. =((

Anyway, i will be totally head over heels over Shou lately, so dont blame me. x))

2007-03-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

Only you can save yourselves.

Today dishwashing at night. Im totally wear out. I had been non-stop scrubbing and washing from 6 to 9.30. I was so gonna prove them wrong that i can make it without having any plates left outside. O well, seems like i made it. HUURA. But my hands wear totally wear out and looked $%^&. I need some cream on it later! LOL.

Dearie yvonne come my house for a sleepover. So we decided to have pajamas on and we shall take some pictures later. HOHOS. So next time when pyy is back, we shall hold a pajamas party at her place with everyone. HUURA. That will be great. O well.

Im totally worn out. *yawns.
ciaos. x))

2007-03-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

we should stop all those badmouthing
and poor assumptions.

I dont understand why adults like to continue gambling when they start to keep losing?
It is because they want to try their luck to earn back what they have lost, but to me, it does not work at all. Once a person start losing, the luck is decreasing. I just dont get what they are thinking, they can start off with winning a lot of money, but still continue ended up with losing more and they still want to try their luck once and again. They have cut their pocket a hole in it and gone home grumbling all about it. o well, my mom is one of the example. >=(

Gambling with adults are scary. The amount they put on the table aint small but big until you can actually lost all of your weekly allowance. My god, there goes the money. Luckily, i won a bit with my start off only 2 bucks. =))

make my life full of colours please. =((

2007-03-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

MY GOD!
ALICE NINE "JEWELS" PV IS OUT! AND EVERYONE LOOKS FREAKING GORGEOUS AND CHARMING INSIDE! MY GOD! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. HOOTS!

2007-03-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

O boy, bo-ring. I was totally starving today during work so i ordered a miso ramen. Hoots! I was so satisfied and full. x)) The last hour of my working time i was totally dragging myself and leaning myself on something. I was totally restless, o well~.
David made me so embarrassed today, uh uh. But what he was saying was so not going to be true. Because that's what i think and dont think it is possible. Great. =))

Like what yvonne darling said, we need some colours in our life. Life has been so dull and lifeless lately and i cant feel any excitement in it. Perhaps things go so down after giving up on everything. =(( So i cant wait to get into poly now.

O well, back to my own world again.
I shall post the song of the anime im watching currently. xD

ciaos. x)

2007-03-01T13:05:00.000+08:00

i take back my words,
it will never happen again.

The weather is rather cold today, so i have a good sleep till now. =))
This is Col feeling rather tired because of the cold weather. It has been raining since yesterday on and off. LOL. I was totally soaked with rain water yesterday when i reached home, and yes, SOAKED. Feel like falling sick so i had decided to go to sleep with that soaked body, but when i woke up, it did not work at all. O well~

Lately i did not feel like working or doing anything at all, just feel like lying on the bed and just sleep. It will be so relaxing. Ah!~ *kimochi~. LOL.

somehow it is wrong, but i have started to give up on everything.

2007-02-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

Boku wa Imouto ni Koi wo Suru
- I Love My Younger Sister -

This is about a forbidden love between twins.
I think i will love this movie by Matsumoto Jun. I will recommend to you guys after i get to find this movie online! *doki doki. x))

2007-02-26T16:24:00.000+08:00

It says it all.

Yesterday, we went to Ting's birthday party. It was rather boring in the first place so all we did is playing some cards and eat. But after the session of singing the birthday song, it was great and everyone's true colours were showed. Everyone thought of being SM or SM people. It was totally my god, especially the guys who really loved to SM people. O well, just treat it as a game yea, or else there will be alot of "yuan qi" among everyone. hahas.

sorry ali, seems like i've panged you yesterday. Sorry. x(

Let me show you some scandalous pictures.
People who are under 16 are not allowed to see the pictures. =))

you can see the happiness in John's eyes. LOL.

Anyway, everyone had a good laugh yesterday night. DON'T GET US WRONG. The game is about releasing the ribbon using your mouth which is tied on the victim. So our dear perverted colleagues had thought of tieing the ribbon somewhere somehow over the rainbow. -.-"
Sorry yvonne and ali for putting up the pictures without asking for permission. Tag me to remove the pictures. heh hehs. =P

2007-02-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

why it ended out like this.
once again and again.

Hope Dreyy have a memorable birthday as the plans have to re planned as dreyy is not feeling well on her birthday. O well, we entertained her with playing mahjong at her place. NICE!! I love playing mahjong, but it just will be better with to play with my cousins. =X O well, i know who to jio for the mahjong kakis since dreyy's hse is opened for us to go and play again. =)) Her father is so enthu about playing the mahjong. O well~. hahas. x))

2007-02-24T02:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is Kame's birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! He has turned 21st this year and what a coincidence.. His birthday is one day before Aud's birthday while Jin's birthday is one day before mine too. *doki doki. x)) <33

So i shall post the latest drama's ost he has acted by celine dion. It is a very relaxing song till you will cry.. You will understand what im referring to after you have watched the lvoe dorama. *doki doki desu. x))

2007-02-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LONG LOST BESTIE!

She has successfully turned 17 this year. My god. Though she sound like a mom but sometimes she acts and looks like a small sis. O well, hope she have a brand new beautiful year ahead as it is different to be a 17 years old laday then a 16 one. xDD

Today is a tiring day. Slept for the whole afternoon though i did wake up for 1hr to open up my eyes. But i still feel like lying on the bed and relax since today does not have work. Darn, tomorrow i have to work. It is getting so boring nowadays and practically im dragging myself to work. *Sighs. Can i dont work but still keep in contact with my colleagues instead? o well, just joking.

2007-02-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

think it is better to..

Have steamboat with girlfriends and it had created bonding!! Maybe i should not talk too much since they had said i was too noisy. o well. We gambled and yvonne was so emo. My god. lol. o well. I had won a little, so its okay. hahahs. x))

Alrights, that's for now. hahas. x))

2007-02-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

he is my fcuking lover. god.

and he is freaking hot.

dont blame me or fantasizing too much. They are too irresistible. xD

2007-02-20T01:23:00.000+08:00

Cheerios!

This is Col who received a major heart attack from her mother and brother. They criticized me for wearing a maternity top and described my *in front airport. Great. I've spent 33 bucks on the top and i guess i will not wear it for the next time anymore. O well. Anyway, my cousins and i had Lao Yu Shen, so hopefully this year will be a better year and a greater bonding with them too. heh hehs.

The movie is quite nice which is not violent but about drugs. So guys, dont take drugs, you will kill yourselves. It is not the movie Hiroto was speaking of, o well~. Anyway, we have a great fun at Cafe Carte with my girlfriends today. =)) It is so nice to meet them up. I miss Aud and Pyy. x((

Tomorrow i am working split which is partly working for the whole day. Im tired, dont feel like working.. x( *pray hard tomorrow wont be busy, or i shall be dishwasher. hahahahas. x)

2007-02-19T17:07:00.000+08:00

It is fun to gather around with my cousins once again.
I slept over at my cousins' house yesterday night and so did the other cousins too. The usual six closest cousins have finally gather together. I cannot say i received alot of red packets this year, but i have received a happiness bonding with my cousins. That's great. =)) We have to meet together often yea? hees. x))

Later going to catch a movie with my girlfriends. O great, im going to catch the show which Hiroto watched! Doki Doki. Heard it is a rather violent show, o well. ^^ v

2007-02-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

cousins' fun time again. =))

Yesterday was really fun. Great talk with my cousins while having late supper with them. It has been a long time since we met up together and joked with each other. It is a nice bonding for us again and i cant wait to meet up with them again. =DD

O well, another bloody hairstyle i have. I look like some kukus in the street. O well, i have to wait for my hair to grow longer. I promise i will not touch it until it grows till shoulder length. MY god, i look like miss chong. hahas. x(
I realised that i only have 2 new tops and 4 new bottoms. So it means i am going to either rewear them for another day or wear my old top. O well, cny is really troublesome. Gees.

2007-02-16T01:51:00.000+08:00

because Jin is freaking gorgeous

I love him more in his another drama series call "Anego" = "Big sister". lol.

If everyone is giving up on you and you see the reason why, try to give yourself a change. If you dont see the reason why, get up and think about what actually goes wrong. People beside may have given direct hints.

Yesterday spend my "singlehood" valentine's day with colleagues and cousins before that. Or maybe not singlehood for all of them. hahas. We actually work yesterday and feeling all lonely after seeing couples in and out throughout Tonkichi. Great, it was so busy till everyone were actually feeling all hot and sweaty in an air-conditioned place. It was a tiring day afterall and we craved for some breaks! x)) A superb cute jc stranger gave yvonne a rose. Darn her. hahas. xP I was awefully feeling so jealous. x(
O well, thanks for Shao jing, my cousin, Shyan, Kang and Jessuu for the valentine's gifts. xD

2007-02-14T02:01:00.001+08:00

Work hard and plan now.

I have to finish up my planning for my future course. Seriously, there are none im interested in so i have to fill in the course which can be easy related to the Tourism course. O well, im retaking my english next year and that is a must.!

All i can do now is get myself up and think positive once again. There are actually no time for me to sob over my results which are done now. What i can do to achieve for i will try my very best. Hope the course i get in will be fun and i definitely will try to appeal first. =))

Valentine's Day is tomorrow and o well, there are nothing to yearn about. No one is currently in my mind and it makes myself so KONG XU! I've forgotten how to like someone. God.

2007-02-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

This is so fcuk.
So what there is 5 As? I cant get into the courses i wanted to get in all because my english fail. Great. So what if it is for walk in, the possibilities are still not high, there are loads of people what to get in to the course i've yearned for.

So what is my fate now?
Get to the course and fcuk about completing it without any interest. This will continue till i step into the society without doing something i'm actually liked. So fcuk.

a fcuking post because im darn angry.

2007-02-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

SHOU IS <33!>

He is deeply missed by me!

Shou got his bunny teeth fixed. I dont like it. But i still love him. He is older than me by 9 years old? I guess, but i dont mind. Age gap does not matter. He has the same birthday as me! hehes. xD. They are going to release an album which got a new song call " 13" inside! GOD! It is my favourite number. This is so love. <33!!

I shall post some dearly pictures of my love. Because Shou rocks, Saga rocks, Hiroto rocks, Nao rocks, Tora rocks and ALICE NINE ROCKS! whoohoo. They keep me going.. *dances.

watch this. This totally rocks the stage. It makes me want to rock with them on stage too! *jumps. And Saga is singing inside too! GOD! --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kmnsiEtDxUw This is freaking HOt. Hiroto is freaking HOTTT! AHH!

This is fcuking hot.

just say im paranoid.

2007-02-08T18:14:00.000+08:00

O well, Col's back.
Currently my internet cable is not working so i cant use the net now. Darn. I dont like the feeling without internet because i hve to spend more cash on vcds to spend my rest of the time at home. Now i am at my godmom's office, but i cant use the com that late like i used to. O well, this is so not great.

Another bummer stuff.
O's results are coming out like.. TOMORROW! GREAT! I really have the worst feeling about recieving it. the confidence in me is not there, and i trully know i wont do well for it like what i've done for my prelims. what is done, is done. Darn. I really dont like it. It will be a truely nightmare.
Please hear my prayers. Maybe i should follow what Denson said, trust god. o well, maybe i should not. hahas.

Saw Dahc. o well, he is <33. Dont take me wrong, im just being desperate for being KONG XU for the past few weeks. I really do need some eyecandies or some spikes. O well. xD

Please, at least let me pass for the course.

2007-01-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

Part of the scene in My boss my Hero. so cute.
Koki is so adorable in the show. xDD School life definitely is the best. xD
My Boss My Hero is a super nice school dorama, comedy too. =)) This is the summary of the dorama. Catch it.
'Sakaki "Tornado" Makio, the tough 27-year-old wakagashira (young master) of the Kantou Sharp Fang family loves alcohol, fighting, women and pudding. However, he is a high school drop-out and by academic standards, pretty dumb. He is illiterate, extremely bad at math and cannot even fully write his name in kanji. His father, who is also the family's oyabun (boss), worries for the future of his son and his organization as he wishes for Makio to succeed him. He decides to force his son to return to high school to receive his diploma. He asks an old friend who happens to be the principal of a nearby school to admit Makio. If Makio doesn't graduate, the position of boss will be given to his younger brother.

Furthermore, he must pose as a 17-year-old during school hours and in the presence of any classmates or teachers outside of school. If his cover is blown, it would be the end of his high school career as well as his hopes to become boss. Things start out rough and tough as Makio's violent temper is tested. As the lessons and days go by he learns there is much more to school than just tests and studying.'

Look at the sky. Kimochi desu.
I just want to fall in love again.
Even if it is just a crush, it still gives a kimochi feeling. =))

2007-01-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

we have been so gay.
we disturb and we listen.
Bonus point because we flirt.

2007-01-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like trying harder anymore.

Kang is really a slow dish washer. But o well, i will be around the same as him if no one helps me. Thanks to Tai chen and Ai ting, they helped me alot yesterday for dish washing.
Next wednesday they intend to go to ktv pub to celebrate Thong's farewell and 2 Chens' birthday. Another spending day, so maybe i shall, or shall not go. lol.

This is so @#$%!
Hanazawa Rui and Domyuji Tsukasa. (F4 in Hana Yori Dango)
They look freaking Hot in here. xD. I shall post it big then. xDD

2007-01-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

O well, im freaking tired today. I was totally half awake during work and i was dragging my feet to serve the customer. O well o well~.
You should have heard about what happen yesterday. Pyy's has left to study overseas at Perth. We will miss her. x(( All her stupidity and no one we can disturb about for being rich! hahahas. Maybe while online i shall ask her what brand she wear to school every day. LOL. This will be fun. hahas. I've uploaded the pictures in huat's photobucket. Go there and take from the folder. =)

Anyway, this is the picture that we took with the board that we made.
Too bad she cant take it to Perth, o man. It is so irritating! LOL.

i dont look nice in this picture. o well.
Our hard work. x)

simply love this picture. x)

2007-01-22T02:45:00.000+08:00

I need some handsome guys to accompany me to sleep. * er herm. I mean i will meet them in my dreams. x)) Sweet dreams for today. =))

ARSENAL WON!
watched the match at amk's mac with colleagues. LOL. *yawns.
Alrights. Im going to bed. Lazy to blog, it is 3.20AM now so.. Nights people. =))

2007-01-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

today is love. <33!

It is time to think about our future plans to a good school and a better course.
Went out with girlfriends (included yL) to Temasek and Ngee Ann Poly's open house. The polys have their good and bad, o well~. Choices choices choices. It is not late to crack our brain and think wisely to make a good choice. Girl friends are cracking their brain now and today aint that bad afterall. x))

Tomorrow, im working 11-4. O well o well~. I have taken 3 days break in a row and it is time to start working already! I need cash, urgently. LOL.

2007-01-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

Took quite a no. of pictures today. BUT, only one got me inside. LOL.
Went to Chimes with my colleagues today. We went just to check out Coscafe. The shop is darn cool, the maid uniform are so sweet till you can drool over the dress. Opps. Thanks to my colleagues that they accompany me back to the job to ask whether there is any job vacancies. O well, my lucky is not there.

Later, we walked to clarke quay and have dinner. The pizza is sweetly cheap but the pastas are abit yups. LOL. But the inside the chimney is beautiful as it is decorated something like in the galaxy. nice~. Then, we went to broad game cafe. IT is so cool BUT expensive though the drinks are free flow. o well, im broke these few days. The broadgames are super duper fun to play esp the animal game. It makes me feel so HIGH. moo moo~!!

"Nearby Cafe" that we went for dinner.

The chimney of galaxy. LOL.

Second game that we played. Shao jing's character's salary kept going down. hahahas. xD

Kang's oink oink. Von's woof. Mine's MOOMOO!
The game is practically about "oink oink meow meow woof woof hoot hoot kok kok quay meh meh MOO MOO!" Next time im going to bring my girlfriends to go. It is so fun. Maybe after when everyone gets their pay. bonding~!

Some loves make my day today. =)) Poh ee is one of them because i saw her at bradell today. x))
One lovely malay girl waved "bye bye" to me. This is so sweet of her because she was actually waving to a completely stranger! What a simple minded and pure little girl! She made my day. x))

2007-01-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

I woke up and feel terrible inside as i dreamt that i got the worst marks ever for my O level results. My results deteoriated horribly and result me getting into nowhere. I was the first who get the result slip somehow by Mrs Lye and i was shaking inside my dream. I ran away after seeing my result and i did not get it why the results aint showing what i want them to be. It is a nightmare for me and i woke up, starting to worry about the reality faced before chinese new year..

2007-01-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

i need some ecstasy to spike up my life. xD

Denson is a darn nice guy. He helps me most of my work today though i admit i did slack a lot today. BUT, he "tried" to phys co me to be a Christian. We did say a lot of religion (mostly Christian) stuffs today. =)) It is interesting though but i am just a free thinker. Great. x))
Shyan owe me something i dont care. Because i helped to take his shift which resulted me to work whole day today. so HHAHAHHAS.
David told us a lot of his dramatic life story. And yes. DRAMATIC! Sort of cant believe singapore is like "that" once before. I always thought Singapore is a very strict country since independent. O well o well~ But im glad that Singapore is still very strict about her laws and rules. We are more save living here. =))
Ate alot of good food today. Im not sure what is the occasion but we ate salmon as part of the dishes for lunch and chicken teriyaki for dinner. Yum yum. x))

O well o well~ Im off for the coming three days. whoo hoos! Im free! xD

2007-01-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

" because you are just so freaking useless. Get up and beat yourselves."

maybe i did cry before, that's why i know.

Take it like i did not know anything.
Maybe looking at the sky will help to clear the thoughts.

2007-01-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

When everything seems so pure last time, what has happened now? Things have gotten much complicated as it looks. A small matter has grown into a bigger matter till things get harder to solve and think. Why cant it be like last time when everyone is satisfied with one another? When human beings grow more matured, they tend to think more complicated and not satisfied for what they actually have. Selfishness ruins one. Jealousy ruins a character. Even if it is kept in a dark, even if it is left unsaid, we still are happily together aint us? Why let it ruins us till everyone gives up and does not even care anymore? Even if it does happen, even if the matter get worst, why cant we forgive one another and give each other a chance again? Questions are left not answered.

One day when everything really falls apart, friends are not the one who can help you. Friends do come and go, friends do stay by your side but this is not a 24 hours clinic. They have their own life, own problems to solve. They cant help you in every bit of your complicated life and solve them back into a simple, pure life. Only you can help yourselves up, only you can pull yourselves up. When everything in your mind has gone wrong, headwired, you are the one who pushed yourself back to the well again. You can never climb up and see the light again. Even others have tried their best to lend a hand, you will still go back in the darkness as you are unwilling to change yourselves.

Even the closest one beside cant help you always, they will still leave one day. Not now, not next week, but just some other unexpected day. So you have to prepare yourselves for whatever upcoming circumstances, not stand there and let them defeat you. Pull yourself up and be the winner.

2007-01-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

You ended the speech just like that, assuming i dont understand at all. Or perhaps you put yourselves in my shoes too. Or i can say, you dont understand about how i feel at all too.
No assumptions. No imaginations. No illusions. Stop the thought which sticking in your mind, i thought you have changed. You just gave me a beautiful shock again.

If you want someone to like you, why keep rejecting others from the beginning?
Even if the same mistake is repeating again and over again, the person still willing to try one more time to get back to the same. Why not just give another chance despite of all the chances you have made. As long as the person is willingly to try once again to change, why not give another chance? It is not like impossible or cannot make it. As long as you willingly to try, a change will be seen no matter how long it takes. A change cant change by saying or in a split second, it takes time. It takes time to let a person to change and understand much deeply into the situation. It takes time to change a persona character and attitude perhaps you cant stand any longer, but a person who tried harder will reach a step closer to his/her point. the people beside will have to try pushing harder and be supportive to reach his/her aim regardless of how many times he/she tried to look back or fall again.
That is what friends right?

Forget about these stuffs, i have done what i want to say. It is time for some relaxing session.

*Meow!! We are here to help! x))

I simply miss the episodes in Gokusen II although i prefer the first season of Gokusen. O well, love Jin is in the air. He is JUST 23 years old this year. Who cares? I love cancerians. LOL.

2007-01-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

Ahh~. Shao jing and i totally half dead today i guess so. My eyelids were so heavy but i still must get to work. o well~. Dishwashing today THANKS to Shao jing. Nah. It was more slack than the work outside. Lucky Auntie was here and i just have to arrange the plates and stuff. o well o well~.
Jesse! Let's look forward to poly life. Currently there is no motivation for me, including at workplace too. hahas. boo hoos.
Shao jing is my female motivation. I will look forward to the days to work with her. Serious! Shyan is darn funnay. He HAVE to bring me to CosCafe and i dont care. xDD

There wont be a spark.

Helping people's problems are just being too bossy about it. It is getting worse. I am out of this. I dont want to touch any of other people's problems anymore. Help people = no help. Forget it and live in my usual life. =)) I shall be out of this.

2007-01-10T20:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday im in charge of dishwashing again since auntie is not here. I definitely dont like the job but yesterday i keep repeating to myself, " this is my job for today, i have to complete this. " Finally, i did complete the task and i feel so satisfied with myself with everything washed, excluding some bigger trays. LOL.
Shyan's birthday yesterday and a big secret was known. heh hehs. So blockhead vs blockhead? LOL. Anyway, i was plainly listening to david's "lecture". It is interesting though, knowing all the facts about one's life. A spark does not last long, it happens in only a split second. So i rather dont have the spark on? LOL. Shao jing and i kept going to the toilet after the eating session. Alrights, we can be toilets buddies already. whoohoo! vonne pung me in the beginning, how could she? pung sei. tsk tsk. LOL.

Today, Ai ting, Shao jing and me are totally half dead since yesterday we went home goodness late. Looks like thong had the FIRE in him. LOL. I think today i am darn slack. I dragged my feet, walking on my slower pace and yet, i can manage to serve as usual. LOL.

some pictures, we took. x))

2007-01-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

I'll sing with all my pride.

Reality is not illusions you created, it does not always turn out to be in your way.
Either you face the reality, or keep pursuing the illusions you've created. Try your best and do what is right and the reality will turn out to be in your way. Even if it does not, at least you did try your best and have improved yourself to be a better person.

Even if you are not in the wrong, the one who have started his/her fist on the another person is still the loser. Arrange your feelings and do what is the best for you even if you did not do wrong.

2007-01-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

Appreciate what you have now.
Once they are lost or disappeared in a blink, you will never get it back. Tell your parents how much you love them and appreciate them. The three words "i love you" aint that hard to say out, it just depends on you want to or not. Once you began to regret, there are no use of going back to the past since they are already gone. Human beings never get satisfied for what they have now, they simply just want even more. Appreciate what you have, they may be old or have no use at all, but they bring memories that you never have before.

Behind every bad person brings a story. Everyone is born with a kind heart. But once they grow older, they became selfish. Some bring a sad story behind them, dont judge a bad person for what they did. They may be bad outside but there's always a gentle side of them. That is what i believe.

They tell you all your bad points straight in the face do not mean they dont like you, because they are your friends, they think they are right to tell you what you are bad in and hoping you will change for the better.If they dont treat you as one, they wont bother to tell you. This proves how much they care about you.

2007-01-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

i just need that someone to just look at my way. How am i suppose to find that kind of person? Call me selfish, but i just want him to look at me only.

2007-01-05T18:35:00.000+08:00

because im feeling all so smexy.

i dance, i sing and i rock the stage all night
but somehow i just feel so empty inside.
im feeling nauseated and vomited out the alcohol
and yet i just dont feel right.

SEXUAL DISGRACE

i saw a dirty figure in the reflection of mine
and realise that's me who is making a fool out of myself all night.
Im not okay, im not alright
I need to regain my conscious and dump out my tears.

FILTH IN THE BEAUTY

The scars still remain
the pain is still there
Nothing can heal
nothing can save me and bring me to see the light.

The last look of your person
the last touch of your face.
The last kiss on your lips
the last feeling with you on the bed.

Goodbye my lover, goodbye my betrayal.

I cant continue down cuz its getting abit out of point. lol. No link. =.=
Suddenly i got the inspiration to write all these stuffs. Looks like a story or lyrics? hahas. lame. xD No worries, its of cause not bout me. I just got the inspiration to type out. lol.

2007-01-04T10:40:00.000+08:00

Because of thinking "you cant, its impossible" does not push yourself into reaching any further. It holds you back from reaching your limit. Thinking that you have reached your limit on the same spot is equally as useless as without doing anything.
Keep trying, keep pushing yourself and overcome your own limit, it makes you become stronger and you do gain some through this experience. Even if you just pushed yourself to the slightest bit, you still gain something. It does not cause a flesh for trying even harder, so why not try rather than watching and do nothing. =D

Life never is easy. But it cant be hard if you do not try. Knowing that you cant does not bring you any happiness but in stead, sorrow. Life is not that complicated. Even if it is, just sit down and try thinking where it goes wrong and try to think of ways to amend it. There's always difficulties in solving one but you can always share it with others. You never know he/she does not want to hear. Sometimes think openly help you think out of your circle of thoughts. It makes you become more mature and think wisely. Dont just assume your thoughts, it does not get right everytime. Your selfishness for keeping it yourselves let you become even more sensitive, open up your mind and let it chills. lol.

Every little thing can be solved, if you try to work something on it rather than keeping it to yourselves.

2007-01-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

Even dear Jin cant save me to smile now.
A frown on my face.

2007-01-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow school reopens and i have started to miss school where all the stupid yet whacky memories are created. I miss the boring lessons when i always dozed off in and i miss the teachers too. However, i have to move on again to a new life, new beginning of the year. My quote always be the same, "smile as tomorrow will be another better day." You have to lose something in order to get something new, there are always sacrifices which you have to make in order to earn something more valuable. Friendship will always be the same unless you start to lose faith and trust in them. In order not to lose that one thing, you have to stretch out your hand to grab it, not just by watching it fading away. Dont stand there doing nothing but just talk, do something in action. Think about others, think about what the cause and effect. Dont left them out with your own topics which cant be shared to others. These things are easily said but when it comes to actual fact, it depends on you want it to happen or not.

"Because of fulfilling your dreams, i sell my body once and over again. Because of protecting your dream, i rather make big sacrifices. You make me learn to smile once again, you teach me what is happiness. The only thing i want to wish for, is your health. I'll sell my dirty body in order to get money in exchange of your health. Then, we will look at the sky together again, throwing those unwanted thoughts away and wish for a new beginning. But im sorry, i love you.."
Deep Love ~ Ayu no Monogatari. It is a totally touching drama. It is about a real life story i guess. x(( I suddenly feel all emotional about the drama so i type these out. LOL.

Anyway, Happy New Year. lol.

Check out this podcast episode!

2006-12-31T01:53:00.000+08:00

BLACK CAT

BLAST IT

Trapnest - Truth

Enjoy! -- blackcat

2006-12-30T00:12:00.000+08:00

This is so HOT! Shou looks freaking sexay in here. xDD

Joke of the day:
When i serve tea to table 10, one customer asked "is this cabbage or lettuce? " pointing at the veggie. Then i replied "cabbage" with the not-so-sure-look. Then, marvin came to the next sec to refill cabbage for them while i served tea for the next table. The customer asked the same qns and guess wad? Marvin STONED at there without replying the answer because he did not know what to reply. hahahas. I was laughing away while serving tea and the customers gave the are-you-okay look. LOL. It is hilarious to see how Marvin react.

Embarrassment of the day:
I was too high till and FELL while "jumping" around. No one helped but laughed. Damn them. It hurt so badly but none asked "are you alright". Damn them again. It was so embarrassing to fall in front of my colleagues. Boo boo.

It is not so tiring today, i have fun instead for my famous self-entertainment. hahahas.

2006-12-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

Great, today i was in charge of dish washing. And it was utterly tiring! Today i was so worn out that i dont bother about my eyecandy and guess wad? I had forgotten to punch out my time card and when i realised it, i called back to Tonkichi and asked Karen to help me to punch out. For the goodness sake, bad impression for the restaurant manager! Gosh. I am so dead by now.
Hope tomorrow Karen is not there or i'll been said or warned. x((
And hope im not in charge of dish washing again. Im pretty slow at that and luckily today got Auntie here to help. Or im dead. *sigh.

Isetan private sales today. It was really chaotic and i couldn't even get in as the gates are locked. Great sales outside, "great" work inside. *tired.

Im so blurred these days lately. I dont even sure what exactly im doing. Thanks to marvin for most of the help. =)) I love his side smile. Gees. But uh uh, he is taken and he is not really of my type. xP

HEYS yvonne, sorry about today. Im totally worn out and i cant get through you through the phone today. I've called millions times but somehow the woman said " the singtel .. is currently unavailable. .." Sorry. x((

2006-12-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

My computer has revived once again! whoohoo~
But it has been reformatted = everything is gone. boohoo~
My pictures, my songs~ (cries)

2006-12-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

Last day was totally exhausting. Walk to taka and back to shaw's for 3 times just to collect and return the cakes. Town is filled with people because there is some road show celebration. It was frustrating to carry heavy bags of cakes to one place whereby it is so crowded. I was totally worn out. Shoulder, hand and feet ache. Tomorrow i sure get muscles ache, thanks to sunny. lol. I cant help but to complain about how tiring today can be. hahas. i miss felicia. x(

The brownie is delicious! I cant help but to get another batch today and Auntie Ivy treat me that! Thanks Auntie Ivy. x))

FIRE is the word. Our miss tonkichi captain, Shao Jing taught us. xDD

2006-12-25T00:43:00.000+08:00

MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!

Just came back from yvonne's house. They cooked, i eat. PASTAS! x)) Although it was not very delicious, i still ate all, thanks lovelies!! You all simply are "great" cooks. *punches.(from them) Thanks. hahas. It is a waste that we cant play sparkles, or else it will be great!
Thanks jessu su for the presents!! heh hehs. x))

Tomorrow will be the last day of work of selling cakes. I will miss Auntie Ivy and Felicia though. Maybe i'll say hi to Felicia and Shirley when i saw them outside Dome. heh hehs. x))

i'll go sleep soon,
ciaos!

2006-12-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

happy happy day today. >DD

Its already X'mas eve and where are my presents? heh hehs. (just joking)
Later got work early in the morning and at night is going to be funky going cranky with girl friends. WHOO HOOS. Stupid huat and dreyy cannot make it, pyy have to join later, so left the four of us. It's alright, we are going to make the whole night with loads of fun aite? hees.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERYONE!

Hey guys, tell me whether you all did hear my blog song, it is sung by Boa - Meri kuri. x))

2006-12-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

Shit, i found his friendster.
Shit, i saw his pictures.
Shit, he is so loving.
Shit, i have to find a new one.

2006-12-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

I want a boyfriend. Not a part-time boyfriend.
Someone like TC will be so great but it is just a dream and desire. Sometimes i really think it is so unfair, why people like us cant get great guys? Maybe we have did alot of sins in our past lives. hahas.
Someone who can walk you back home, 24hrs care about you and mainly, he is just belonged to you. How nice~! *sigh. Appearance may not be the problem, but personality rules all. It is so hard to find a great guy!! Even if found one, he is already taken, so unfair!!
!@#$%^&!!

*sigh. WHY GOD WHY??

2006-12-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

because you are my darling. xDD

lately, i think i've lost my fashion sense. I wear class tee and shorts to town today. lol. i dress horribly nowadays and think i actually look pretty cool. [ a lie ]

O well, working is all i can do now.
The time past so slowly while im selling cakes and standing there doing nothing. I get very hungry so soon in a blink and get very tired when i get home. I want to resume my work as a waitress neither do i want to sell cakes. The time passes faster and at least i got work to do.
The auntie is nice, she treated me fan choy today. x))

2006-12-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Tomorrow starts work . My job is selling cakes at basement of Shaw House.
Great, TC got a girlfriend already! O man, he is really a helpful person. Whatever you are in doubt with, he will help u. He will lead you. aww. Its okay, he is my motivation of working harder. =)) But this coming week i will not be able to see him since im selling cakes. O man, hope i can see him after work. x)))

2006-12-17T01:44:00.000+08:00

Akanishi Jin.
I know why im so interested in him (thou im interested in kazuya also)
His birthday is 4th if July!! Im so interested in Cancerians. uh huh. nowonder. He is Hot and he is way too sexay! great, i do sound like a pervert old man. (laugh)

2006-12-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

Second day of work ain't that bad, my colleagues are still helpful as usual but of course i did most of the work myself. I think my hands have become rougher for cleaning the sauce bottles and stuffs. I think i did a good job for being in charge of the sauce today. Thanks Kang for teaching me. o yea o yea. But come on, bloggers aint't losers.
O well, overall im satisfied with my work and im looking forward to the next day. =))

Im selling cakes next week as STUPID yvonne does not want to change shifts as me, o well.
I will be working at the basement from next Monday - Saturday with Celine. But she only works for a few days, o well. =)) Why not she change shift with him? (laugh) Fat Hope. LOL.

2006-12-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Friends always welcome you with a warm smile and end it with a great laughter.
There are times when you are being left out, but dont turn yourself to the negative side. Join their conversation, be one of them. Start a new topic and get ready for the gossips or facts. x)
Sometimes i do agree working brings us further apart, but always try something new to bring us back together again. Hope some unexpected stuffs wont bring us apart. <=))

Get a hair cut today. One die, all die. great.
As i expected after a wash, gone. LOL. There's a need of straightening for my hair now. LOL. Am i really going to work tomorrow? Let's see tomorrow. hahas. xDD

2006-12-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

The doctor do piss me off. My blogger got some problem so i dont think i want to rewrite about what happen at the clinic. My blood will boil more if i repeat what i've said. o, damn him.
I swear i never step into the clinic anymore, over my dead body. A doctor who keep cutting your speech and does not answer your question is not a good doctor. However, he does claim that he is right but his explanation does not even sound convincing. whatever.

NOBUTA POWER FIGHTING ENTER!
After saying it, it helps to boost up your power! =)) Alright, maybe im just too naive like Nobuta. But i do not do that, maybe sometimes at home. lol.

My favorite anime character form fushigi yuugi. heh hehs. Repeating watching the series make me damn high. It is a successful work from yuu watase. =))
Imagine you fall in love with an ancient guy who willingly to come to your world just to live with you, wonderful right? Of cuz, he had to make sacrifices back then. awesome~
As long as you believe in yourself and the love you've made, miracles do happen. xDD

2006-12-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

Sigh. I've been sent to work at the basement of Shaw house to sell cakes from Next monday - saturday. O great, i have not start work as a waitress already been sent to sell cakes. Sigh. It keeps delaying, the feeling of working is not really there anymore. A disappointment to sell cakes.. Maybe i need someone like Akira, offer one kiss for whoever who buy cakes from the shop. Like that the day will end more quickly. hahas. Fat hope.

Sigh.

Black Cat the anime is damn nice, nothing about romance in the moment. =DD

just being a wild cat with freedom. =))

2006-12-12T00:45:00.000+08:00

This guy looks so different!
Gokusen 1

Hana Yori Dango

He acted as Hanazawa Rui in Hana Yori Dango. KAKO II! He looks so charming in there but he looks like a gangster when he acted in Gokusen. x)))
It is totally hilarious when he open the cubicle door while Makino is sitting on the toilet bowl doing her small business. HAHAHAS. It totally cracked me up. Then he said, " huh. at least lock your door." hahahas. funny~ o well, self entertainment.

Next time i'll show you all NOBUTA POWER ENTER! hahahas.

Have pride in what you do, dont let anyone look down on you.
This is your own life. =))

2006-12-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

Well, i dare to say that im much happier now though something happen on some particular day. Be happy and be straight forward looking at your future! You cant live in the original spot, pondering, and living in your past memories. Step out of the spot and you will find more interesting things may happen. Regardless of unhappy or frustrating things, you always learn something in return in the very process which made you grew even matured and be more understanding! I've stepped out of the spot and neither i will go back again. Im looking forward to my 1st day of work and the things that i can make my friends happy and myself too!
WHOO HOO!

Gokusen 1 is HOTDA. Both series are equally interesting! But somehow the Jun (main lead) leads me to the wrong way because he looks like he HAD fallen for his teacher. muahahas.
Loving someone is free.
The difference between Fighting and Violence.
You fight in order to protect the precious something which make you grown stronger.
A fight is a fair battle but violence is a bias battle.
Using all sort of despicable advantages against those disadvantages is called violence.
Such as more ppl against lesser ppl, or using weapons while the opposite didn. yups yups!

Gokusen 2 is darn nice! Kazuya is totally HOT! And the other guy too!
Believe in your friends and yourselves. Treat them nice, and they will treat you better. =))

2006-12-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

This is Gokusen 1. The guy is gorgeous!! whoo. seriously, i really hope there is an affair between the black hair guy and the teacher. hahas. He really looks damn cute in this show, but he slowly show his cuteness in Hana Yori Dango as Domyuji(Dao ming Si) too. hehes

Gokusen2. I cant wait to watch this second dorama. Kazyuya acting in it too!!
JESSE! The guy on the most left is handsome rite? He acted in Nobuta wo Produce i've mentioned in my blog earlier. DROOLSSS. *nose bleeds. gorgeous!! hahahas. im so looking forward to watch it! hahahas.

Alright, i sound like some pervert bastard. hahas. x))
They are ichiban shows. DONT MISS ~~HIM!~~ IT!

2006-12-09T13:27:00.000+08:00

This dorama is totally awesome!! It is about friendship and about changing one's life. Believe in urself and you can do it! Nobuta Power Fighting Enter!! hahas.
Alright. My life is going to be all about doramas and idols. Fansite huh. hahas.

Whenever there is peace, there will be some troublemakers who are going to start trouble again.
Even if you fell to the bottom, your life still doesn't end. Life doesn't end so easily. =))

watashi wa daijobu, ke do watashi wa sabishii to na.

2006-12-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

Now im currently spending my time watching doramas. One dorama after the another one. Too bad the show Hana Yori Dango[meteor garden] Live action dorama cannot be continued watching as it is copyrighted and been requested to be removed in youtube. O man, it is another must-watch dorama! hahas. Going off to watch This new cute dorama. x))

Nobuta no produce is a really fun dorama to watch!! Hey guys. Dont miss this. The actors are so kako ii!! x))

Aww, i want to go shopping with guys who help you to pay and choose lovely clothes. whoohoo. And by these two lovely guys!! Gosh.. Im so crazy over this dorama now. Its freaking nice and about them who change one's life! WHOO!